When I was a kid, I remember being perfectly normal. By perfectly normal I mean that I had no issues talking to new people. I had no problem acting exactly how I felt in any given situation. Most importantly, I had no major irrational fears. I would go to my friend’s birthday parties and hang out with classmates outside of school and feel perfectly fine. I would openly play with and talk to my cousins at family parties. I was a little shy, but it wasn’t a big deal. One day that changed. I’m not certain if there was any defining moment that it all changed, but if I had to guess I would say it was high school that I developed social anxiety.
I’m in college now and it’s something I still deal with each and every day. Every interaction I have is laced with anxiety and sometimes I feel like I just can’t get a handle on my own life. Every little thing makes me anxious, and all of these little things sometimes pile up into one big thing and that, ladies and gentlemen, is how my anxiety attacks are born. They rise up out of the intense fear that I feel and they can be hard to deal with somedays.
This blog isn’t just going to be me rattling on about every situation that makes me anxious, it’s also going to be about how I calm myself down, what coping mechanisms I’ve learned to utilize and just about my thoughts in general. Do you want to go on an adventure with me? Into the deepest and scariest part of my mind? If you do, stick around, and we’ll get through this together.